tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61816946915804328712011-10-13T19:26:20.304-07:00SpeakThefuckUPhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03824895101318492853noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6181694691580432871.post-12947756875184441352011-10-13T19:26:00.000-07:002011-10-13T19:26:20.313-07:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">I just feel "trapped", like Im tryna find a way out and change the shit I do and do things that will lead me to solidarity or whatever. But sometimes you can't find a way out or escape the feeling. No doesn't matter how High I get or who I talk to, it just stays there. I guess I just have to let it take it's course and be miserable for whatever amount of time.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">But it seems all too often that I have this feeling and it just gets worse. Sometimes I feel as though i will feel "trapped" my whole life. Like this feeling will always be there lingering. This wistful feeling. It's like Im in a dysphoric state, I just have this fear I guess..of life. Honestly right now I don't feel physically nor mentally strong. It takes way too much energy pretending like life is going well when it's <b>complete hell</b>. I guess thats just the positive spirit in me thats tryna break through. I guess good things will come..in due time.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: inherit;">I just want to feel free, live free &amp; be free of..myself. If that makes sense..</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6181694691580432871-1294775687518444135?l=speakthefuckup.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>SpeakThefuckUPhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03824895101318492853noreply@blogger.com0